Ben needs snuggles!

I hate being me. I hate the fact that i have too many non-single female friends. I hate that i'm nice enough to be a great boyfriend, but not attractive enough. I hate that i'm too god damn lazy and pathetic to do anything about it!

i'm sick of being single. why can't i just stop being so damn pathetic? why dont i meet single girls who share interests with me? why dont i meet girls who actually show an interest in me?

why the fuck am i even complaining about this to the internet? its a stupid cry for attention. now i'm no better than those fucking emo kids.... "Wah! My life is shit. Nobody likes me. Help me Mr. Internet. Find a solution to my problem before i turn into any more of a self-loathing ball of poop."

yeah. thats not me.


Look. i even set my mood to "Angsty". how 90's of me.

i've been forced by to do another journal entry....

i dont really have an update. nothing new to report. except i've applied for a rental house closer to work. hopefully i'll get in, so i can sleep in a bit, save on petrol, and hang out with my work buddies more often. ^_^

oh, and i didn't get into uni.


thats all.

i'm finally on track. well, on my way to being on track... after losing my job at PC Superstore (due to shitty sales), i've kinda floundered around, looking for another job. I'm on the verge of being in complete shit and i crawl back to Dick Smith and get my job back. they're truly awesome people there. if you ever get the chance to go into a Dick Smith Powerhouse store, do it.

i've also uploaded my first youtoob vid. me playing along to The Root of All Evil by Dream Theater. chekit! [link]

thats all. i'll be happy and not as stressed wen i actually start earning money again, and can pay off debts, and put new tyres on my car (they're about to blow, i believe...)

well... i didnt get the traineeship. kinda sux, in a majorly way. oh well.

but, you know what they say; "when the door closes, look for a rock to throw through the window!"
by that i mean, the other day at work, this lady brought in her computer to get fixed and what-not, and i started talking to her. turns out she has a passion for web design and thats wat she does. started giving me all these pointers and stuff, even hinted that when she carks it (she's retired...), she'd be looking for someone to carry on her bussiness and manage her hosting. could be an opportunity....

its all networking i guess.

also, i've been talking to alot of musos (musicians) lately when they come into work. i've had a few who are looking for a bass player. that could be yet another few good opportunities. i've given out my number and email to a few, so hopefully i'll hear back and end up in some paying gigs! wooo!

thats all really. my fingers are really dry and cracking lately. i think its cos the store i work in is REALLY really dusty. and that just drys out my hands. annoying thing is that when i come home and start going ape-shit on the bass, it fucking SHREDS my fingers to no end... ouch


thats all!
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